Well my last first day has come and gone... so have my second and third. If this is any indication as to how fast the next 4 months will go by, then I better not sleep or blink or else I'll miss it. I've been trying to figure out how I feel about everything. It's really difficulty because one end of the spectrum I don't want to leave, ever. Then on the other I cannot wait to be done, give me the diploma and send me along my merry way.
I keep telling myself that these are the last 120 days I'll ever be in this position and that seems to help combat the desire to be done.But then that reminds that this is real, and I won't be here forever. I have loved my time at Stetson. I've made incredible friends. Grown personally and professionally. Reached an understanding and love for people that I never expected. And hopefully inspired or helped a few people along the way. I just want to influence someone's life for the better like so many people here have done for me.The lessons I've learned, friendships fostered, and memories made will always be treasured. But to say this is the best time in my life and these memories will be my top is unfair. Stetson has prepared for me a career and taught me not to sell myself short and to find meaning in everything I do. Therefore, I am confident that my experiences here will be mirrored in whatever I do afterwards. It bothers me when people older than me say the best days are "almost behind me". If they are that unhappy in their lives that this dramatic and tumultuous undergraduate experience is the best then maybe they are the ones with the problem. If people didn't make the whole "you only live once" ideology into an excuse to justify doing dumb things and saw it as a reason to live a life full of happiness and doing all the things you love then more people would see that each day is a gift, and should not be taken for granted. We all have to do things we really don't want to do (I didn't want to have to read and analyze a case for my 2nd day of class), but we have to see the beauty and benefit in everything we do (I learned practical skills that can be applied in the real world, plus it was really interesting!).
I'm straying from my original meaning for writing this post, but hey that is the beauty of writing. It frees the soul. And after my meetings and stuff today, I need some freedom. The main reason I just want to enjoy this semester, stay motivated, and have a good attitude is because I was so bombarded with obligations last semester. My classes were not my priority, SGA was which made me deal with a lot of things that did not enhance my quality of life. I really do enjoy my classes and know that the ones this semester will translate into my career field so they are my priority. Next is spending time with the people that I am so blessed to see on a daily basis. The hardest part of graduation will be not being able to call my friends to hang out at any point. I cannot imagine having these people around to watch movies with, force to go get a frosty with me, come over to just discuss life, and to simply listen to me when my mind is wandering. I hope that wherever I end up in May I find the same quality of people that I have found here. I'm used this incredibly high standard, so that will be hard, but I have faith it will work out. As long as I look at the company culture and how well the job fits with me over the salary amount I think I will find some amazing people. I mean Stetson's price tag didn't hinder me from coming here, even though it has strained me and family financially, and look how its turned out! Hopefully Stetson's an investment and will keep the brand as it is. They are trying to grow and that just scares me... 2300 to 3000 students doesn't seem like a big jump, but when you are in the daily grind of things you can see even what a change 200 students can make. The smaller the population the more dramatic the change is. I am glad I was during this time, because the culture is changing. There are some incredible people that have come in over the last 2 years, but its just been different from my freshman and sophomore year. I love change, but it has to be Positive change. If its negative, then why change things?
Anyways, I'm ranting and could go on and on about this... so I'm going to call it a night.
Tomorrow I"m going to post my senior year bucket list and keep you posted on my progress!
Have a lovely day,
Alyssa
