I love the Lady Gaga song 'Gypsy'. Ever since I heard it I felt I could relate.. This particular verse kind of sums up my California dream and adventure.
So I just packed my baggage and
Said goodbye to family and friends
And took the road to nowhere on my own
Like Dorothy on a yellow brick
Hope my ruby shoes get us there quick
'Cause I left everyone I love at home
And I don't wanna be alone forever
But I can be tonight
I don't wanna be alone forever
But I love gypsy life
And it's true, I do love the gypsy life but there are several components you need to be happy. I thought I needed career fulfillment and adventure so I went about as far away in the U.S. as I could to find it.. But I had no one in my circles.. I met some awesome people and am glad to know them but it just wasn't the same. So, I am now living in Charlotte, NC with my family. A major cause of the move is because my mom has to have surgery soon and while her illness is not very severe it was very concerning to me. I hated knowing that I could not fly home if something should happen. Plus, I really do have amazing friends and while we do not live in the same city it is nice to know that I can visit them. It's lot easier to communicate being in the same time zone as well! It was not an easy decision to leave California and resign from my second job in 5 months.. In fact I believed this made a failure and it just did not feel like me because I am a very committed person. But life is about more than tending to yourself and making money. So here I am in my parents townhouse, helping out with their move to Charlotte and helping my mom. I am a bit panicked about finding another job and being taken seriously. But I am a hard worker and have a lot to bring to the table so I just have to find the right fit since a work place is your home away from home.
I personally love change, but I also love a solid foundation and support system. I hope that I can find my foundation here in Charlotte and find change in other aspects of my life. I am so grateful for the experiences I have had, for the opportunity to learn about myself and to learn what is truly important in my life. I think that we put too much pressure on ourselves to graduate, start a career and stick with it getting promoted over 30 years because that is the image of success that we have been given... But I don't buy into that. Success is being happy and surrounded by people you love. You do have to have an income and should be driven to continually learn and move up.. but a 20 year career can come once experience is gained in these first few years after graduating. I do not think it is a bad thing that I am experiencing different positions early on and learning what I do and do not want out of a job. In the end I will be able to be more successful in the work place because I will find what I love to do and enjoy going into work everyday. Although I am hoping that 3rd time is the charm and that I find a company and position I really love here in Charlotte. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Until next time!
Alyssa
P.S. I cannot believe it has been 2 months since my last post! But in all honesty... you didn't miss too much! I'll post pics of California once I get them off my phone, I did see some beautiful sites!
